Being a mom is tough and I daily feel like I’m messing up my kids. I have two boys and one girl. The boys are 5 and 3, the girl is 6 months. I’ve been blessed to be able to stay at home with them.
While growing up, all I wanted was to get married and be a mom. I never thought it would be hard (much like what was mentioned in the video this week). Going through life and seeing disbehaved and naughty kids, I always thought, “My kids will never be like that. They’ll know better.” WRONG. Guess what? When I had kids, they were kids! Little sinners! They weren’t born with haloes on their heads. And they had me, also a sinner, as their mom. Praise the Lord for His grace.
I’ve fallen into the distraction trap — whatever I can do to distract them so I can do what I want. TV, iPods, kindles. Things I thought I’d be able to keep under control. But it was too easy. Turn on cartoons and I get some peace and quiet. Give them an iPod to play with while at a restaurant because I don’t want them to be loud and embarrass me in front of strangers. “Whoa, that mom doesn’t have any control over her kids.” Truth is? I currently have very little. Just yesterday, we were at the mall (a place I try to stay away from) when my 3 year old decided to run at random women and push them. He did this three times!! I was mortified. I picked him up, I gave him swats on the butt, but nothing seems to phase this little 3 year old of mine. And I am so frustrated and at a loss of what to do. I spent more time than I usually do in prayer yesterday, praying for his little heart and praying how I can be the mom he needs. But I don’t pray very much about it in general, one thing I’m hoping will change with this Bible study. Prayer works. I know this.
My 5 year old and I butt heads A LOT. He’s very smart and thinks he is an adult already with the way he talks to me — the way he talks BACK to me.
I don’t want to make the same mistakes with my girl as I have with my boys, but I still find myself falling in the traps!
I really don’t want to mess up my kids. I want to lead them to Jesus instead. I really like at the end of chapter one where it says to take one step at a time. The step I want to take today is to pray for my kids constantly. That is one of the best things I can do for them! I want to pray for their hearts, their minds, their decisions, their days, their futures. I can only be the mom they need me to be with God’s help.