Being a mom is tough…

(I’m doing an online Bible study through Proverbs 31 Ministries on the book Am I Messing Up My Kids? by Lysa TerKeurst and the following blog is a reflection on the week so far.)


Being a mom is tough and I daily feel like I’m messing up my kids. I have two boys and one girl. The boys are 5 and 3, the girl is 6 months. I’ve been blessed to be able to stay at home with them.

While growing up, all I wanted was to get married and be a mom. I never thought it would be hard (much like what was mentioned in the video this week). Going through life and seeing disbehaved and naughty kids, I always thought, “My kids will never be like that. They’ll know better.” WRONG. Guess what? When I had kids, they were kids! Little sinners! They weren’t born with haloes on their heads. And they had me, also a sinner, as their mom. Praise the Lord for His grace.

I’ve fallen into the distraction trap — whatever I can do to distract them so I can do what I want. TV, iPods, kindles. Things I thought I’d be able to keep under control. But it was too easy. Turn on cartoons and I get some peace and quiet. Give them an iPod to play with while at a restaurant because I don’t want them to be loud and embarrass me in front of strangers. “Whoa, that mom doesn’t have any control over her kids.” Truth is? I currently have very little. Just yesterday, we were at the mall (a place I try to stay away from) when my 3 year old decided to run at random women and push them. He did this three times!! I was mortified. I picked him up, I gave him swats on the butt, but nothing seems to phase this little 3 year old of mine. And I am so frustrated and at a loss of what to do. I spent more time than I usually do in prayer yesterday, praying for his little heart and praying how I can be the mom he needs. But I don’t pray very much about it in general, one thing I’m hoping will change with this Bible study. Prayer works. I know this.

My 5 year old and I butt heads A LOT. He’s very smart and thinks he is an adult already with the way he talks to me — the way he talks BACK to me.

I don’t want to make the same mistakes with my girl as I have with my boys, but I still find myself falling in the traps!

I really don’t want to mess up my kids. I want to lead them to Jesus instead. I really like at the end of chapter one where it says to take one step at a time. The step I want to take today is to pray for my kids constantly. That is one of the best things I can do for them! I want to pray for their hearts, their minds, their decisions, their days, their futures. I can only be the mom they need me to be with God’s help.

Autumn, 1 month

Well, we’ve had our Autumn girl for a whole month now! Time flies so unbelievably fast!

Her one month stats real quick, because I know I’ll want to find them later!
Weight: 10 lbs, 5 oz (80%)
Height: 23 ins (100%)
Head: 15 ins (95%)

This month has definitely had its ups and downs. Overall, Autumn is a very chill baby. Only recently has she cried for reasons other than being hungry. She’s made the transition from two kiddos to three very easy for me — something that I was thinking was going to be very hard.

At the beginning, we had to deal with a little jaundice, getting tested three times with a prick in the heel. Not fun. But thankfully we didn’t have to stay any extra nights at the hospital. She was in the clear after about a week of indirect sunlight. Now we’re dealing with respiratory issues, doing breathing treatments with a nebulizer and albuterol three times a day. She never complains, just holds on tight to the mask! She had to have some X-rays taken of her lungs. I never thought my one month old daughter would be my first experience with a child getting X-rays! We were thankful she didn’t have pneumonia. We go to the doctor this morning to see if she’s making progress for the better.

Baby acne has gotten the best of us, but it’s really starting to clear up now! And we also spit up and throw up a lot. I hope the throwing up ends soon!

Autumn got to dress up as a cowgirl for her cousin’s birthday party. I crocheted her up some red and white cowgirl boots and a red cowgirl hat, and my mom made her the cutest dress! We themed her outfit after Jesse from Toy Story. So fun!

Caleb and Colt have adapted well. Caleb thinks she is the funniest little person ever and just can’t contain himself when he’s around her. Colt will randomly go to her, pat her head, and say, “nice, nice.” You can tell they love their baby sister.

Some random pictures from the month:












30 weeks down, 10 to go!

Wowzers. I can’t believe I haven’t posted on here since I announced we were having baby #3!! Slacker, I am.

We’re very excited to be welcoming a little girl into our home in ten short weeks!! And since she is due right after the new year, I think these weeks are going to fly by!

First, Halloween. Caleb is soooo excited. Last Friday we went to Aunt Annie’s house to check out the Halloween decorations in her neighborhood. We find any excuse to go visit her! (Quick side note — it’s raining right now and I’m LOVING it!!) Caleb is also very excited about going trick-or-treating on Thursday night! I’m not gonna lie — I’m excited about the candy he’s gonna bring home!! He is dressing up as Spider-Man and my hopes for Colt is that he’ll let me put his Thomas the Train costume, at least for a picture! He has yet to let me get it on him… If I remember, I’ll post pictures on Thursday!

So after Halloween comes Thanksgiving. Always a good, yummy day. :)

And then all the Christmas activities!! Hopefully I’ll post about each of these things.

I’ve been knitting and crocheting a lot lately. I love it!

Okay, the boys found me. I’m out.

P.S. just a few things I’ve made lately!